For some reason, Meetup has very little around here. The closest one, I did try two outings, but they were really jumping into the deep end (especially for a "social anxiety buster" group) in making trips to karaoke etc.

It is just.. I can't stand being around people. I feel their eyes, I panic and get afraid, then I create pure hatred for them and run away. I can't even imagine a situation where I would get to know people. Where I would meet them, or be able to stay around long enough for a conversation. I can't do conversations. I refuse to use phones because my brain runs at high speed and I get caught up.

I guess what I really miss from college... 15 years ago... before diagnosis and meds... you can't really withdraw too much. Also, people more in academic tastes.