louloubelle : i totally see where your coming from.... i also struggle with my body image for about three years. instead of laxatives i turned to bulimia. and i know how it feels to be addicted to somehting and panacing when you cant take your pills, but for me i would panic when i was at a place where i was unable to purge at.
i just wanted to write you and thinks its so awesome that you wanted to lead a healthier life style by going to the gym. because i know how hard it is to stop an addiction.