Hi waterknob, I, for one am not sick of you posting all this, and I'm sure there are plenty of people on here who aren't either
It's good that you feel able to share what's going on for you........and thankyou (!!!)..........I, and I'm sure plenty of other people want to help you, or want to see you work through this
Now the resume........that sounds like something "hanging over you"/like it seems like a real big/hard task to do??? But do you think you could do just a little towards it every day, even if you just set by 10 minutes each day??? It's all going to add up, and maybe keep that goal in focus of managing to move on from where you're at now. And then just do what you can do to it on Saturday??
And perhaps try to keep an "open mind" to what job you might like to move onto, if you're not already!!
And the anti-depressants you're on, don't seem to be working, right??
Maybe the doses need altering, or maybe there are others which could work a lot better for you. Do you think you could check in with your doctor/pdoc about that?? As you know it's not uncommon for people to need changes in meds from time to time.........and perhaps you're just ready for that???
And don't forget we care, and if you want to talk..........

Alison