Rap, it's interesting to think about other ways of self harming. While I have not cut since late may or early June i am aware of these scars on my legs that are not fading and the fact that eventhough she knows, my doc will see them when I go for my yearly next month. I do lots of stuff that may be self harm. Always wait too long for bathroom, always put others needs before mine. At work at least. Been messing with my meds a bit. I am okay with it for now. I want to not be making 1/2 inch cuts in my legs and belly. I feel good that I haven't done that in a while. Strong feelings make me want to do something. But I am learning to reach out a little and name the feeling to someone so I can have some relief. Today it was Cancer kid and her flight to children's and hemmorage. I told so I didn't need to hide and hurt. Hope this makes sense. I know I am disjointed in my thinking right now. take care.