So, as I posted before; I'm going through a mixed episode.

I have two toddlers, very close in age. This morning, my husband wasn't able to take our children to daycare before he went to work, so I was to take them on my way to work. They are your usual busy toddlers. By 9:30, I was having a panic attack, unable to deal with the stress of parenthood. I left the house much earlier than I should have just to get them to daycare. Dealing with them, without the help of my husband, was definitely a trigger.

I feel horrible, I feel like I'm a horrible mom, and that my kids deserve a better mother than one that avoids dealing with them, alone, because of her own issues.