Hang in there. I know it can be tough to see that things can get better, but I'm proof that it can. I was desperate back in August and thanks to a change in meds and a hospitalization I'm feeling much better. I hope your upswing will be soon.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha