Had a session with T2 today and I'm feeling all kinds of guilty.
I feel guilty because I feel like I painted T1 in a bad light, talking about his self disclosure and how it affected me. I know that some of the things I quoted T1 as saying don't sound therapeutic and almost sound harmful, and after what I said, I just feel T2's judgement and I don't think I could ever make him understand what a great therapist and wonderful human being he was. I feel like T2 is thinking 'what a terrible therapist' and that hurts.
I also feel guilty because I told T2 I don't feel like he understands me like T1 did. This seemed to surprise him and I felt bad for saying it. That was mitigated slightly when I told him I felt like he knows how to help me better than T1 did, and I think T1 understood me so well because he identified with me personally.
I also felt guilty because I talked in very general terms about concerns about repressed CSA memories, and while I know I have some concrete inappropriate memories about this person, what I am accusing them of in my head is much more serious (though I talked very generally and didn't say what I was accusing them of, I did say who it was I think there might be memories of) Even though this person is deceased I feel guilty about casting unfounded aspersions on them.
Do you feel guilt in therapy like this? How do you handle it? How would your T react if you talked about this?