Hello carrey.on, welcome to Psych Central.

I am sorry you are so torn, the thing is, is that you have said above that you have no intention of relocating. That means, that this relationship cannot really go any further. It also sounds like he has moved on from the relationship, where as you still have feeling for him, it doesn't work when it is lopsided like that. You have a boyfriend that loves you, are you happy with that relationship? I think you have a lot to think about, there is no judgement here, it's up to you to figure out.