Hi Everyone!
So my boyfriend of almost 2 years, cheated on me for the first 6 months of our relationship. I found out and decided to stay with him. I just can't seem to let it go. It's been over a year and I still get that sick feeling in my stomach when I think something isn't right. If he has his phone on silent, he unblocked the girl he was messing with on facebook one day, when he is working out of town and I don't hear from him for extended periods of time. I feel like all those things throw me back to the very day I found out about all of this. He says that I forgave him and he's not going to argue about it anymore, nor is he going to have the conversation every few months or weeks whenever I have a breakdown. I still feel wounded and I need him to acknowledge that but he doesn't seem to have much remorse for the damage he caused. I know I have to let it go or let him go. He has told me several times that I need to let it go or move on...and I know that is the truth, I just am on an emotional roller coaster and don't know what to do. I feel he should still be more helpful through this, but then maybe I am the one who is the cause of all the chaos, maybe I shouldn't still be thinking about it. Please understand that I know that it's a difficult situation and some of you will think I'm just stupid for still being there....I just had hope that he meant it when he said he would do anything to make it all better after his cheating....I just constantly have a horrible guy feeling that something isn't right and I don't know if it's because of my past hurt, or I'm just not where I'm supposed to be.
Thanks for taking the time to read this...