I feel like it gets worse every year.
It has been four years to the day already and it still feels as if she just died yesterday.
I wish I had died instead of her.
She was such a perfect person, always happy, so pure and just perfect.
She left the earth way too soon.
I want to die.
I want her to come back.
I want my best friend back.
I don't know what to do anymore.
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~Dx: Bipolar 1 with Psychotic features, Dysthymia, OCD with tics including dermotillomania, Complex PTSD, Anxiety, Dysgraphia, Medication Induced ADHD
~Self-Dx: BPD, ASD with tics, Depersonalization-derealization disorder
~Rx: Wellbutrin 150mg, Gabapentin 2700mg, VIstaril 50mg, Prazosin 2mg, Klonopin 3mg, Trazodone 100mg, Thorazine 50mg
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