Hey,

When I was on it I didn’t have any sudden brain jerks or epileptic kind of feelings.. I just was in the same sense of semi-happiness.. some people like this, but I found it gave me a huge tolerance for the mediocre.. they are the stereotypical happy pills.

I floated rather than lived… really not nice.

Anytime I try to do something in a hurry now or use my brain in work (or now!) I get dizzy and faint like.

It does pass and once you admit to yourself its just your body reconfiguring itself, its tolerable.

I have a very good understanding of my illness and have come to the conclusion that meds “lifting a cloud, re-wiring your brain” blah blah blah is rubbish…

It gets you to a level of numbness and stops you wanting to hurt yourself. This is ok for severe cases of depression, not my illness… that’s what annoys me most.

I used to sweat A LOT on the meds, that was a nightmare especially if it was actually warm outside!

Re the bad dreams.. mine have been chronic lately.. again, this is purely down to the feelings (natural) suppressed by the medications ingredients. They slowly start to come out usually in dream form when asleep… they will also pass.

Its hard at the moment.. the temptation is there to go back on them, but I’m seeing this through… hopefully my body will thank me though.