I saw a cute girl today and the first thing I did was imagined hurting her. I even stared at her for a while after I "killed her" just to get her image in my head and now I can't get it out. I told my boyfriend about it hoping for advice but he thought it was funny. He's rather sadistic and has hurt people himself so he was no help. I see my psych doc tomorrow. I've been having daily auditory and visual hallucinations too. I'm not looking forward to this appointment.