Ooh okay haha thank you for clarifying. Yes, they would object to meds. Personally, I'd want to try psychotherapy before resorting to medication. But they don't want me going to therapy either.

I think the depression is not as bad when I am overworking myself because it gives me less time to overthink things. My coping mechanism appears to be workaholism. These past few weeks and staying in the office until midnight... I have not had as many bad or suicidal thoughts. I'm a bit worried that the depression will return when I have nothing else to do.