Thanks for your kind words. I just wanted to express that you can be happy with how you look and feel without the need to take pills or purge (which I have done too), and I have seen my sister suffer with bulemia also. It's hard work eating right and working out, but that is how alot of beautiful women do it and are healthier for it. Sometimes its about self punishment though. When I get emotionally upset, I'll stop eating for days at a time. I think in a way maybe I am trying to punish myself, or try and gain control over something when it feels like I am losing control over everything else.
Last year I put on ALOT of weight. I felt so digusted with myself. I wouldn't underss infront of my husband and hated looking in the mirror. So I pushed myself to work out and eat right and quit smoking. and I really wanted to share with you all that you can do it and feel good about yourself. I lost 27 pounds and I was so proud of myself, and although I never seem to be fully satisfied with how I look I know that I am a healthy normal woman. Every woman thinks she could be skinnier right? I still obsess a bit over food, but I am trying to get better about it.