Yea, I understand this mentality. Even among my peers and staff at my level, they will do anything to try and look like they are better or more competent. It is a competition after all - for better reviews and possibly better promotions.

There is another girl who started working at the same time as me who witnessed me break down and start crying non-stop after one of the social events. I don't think she has told anyone, but of course I have no evidence she hasn't. She's the person I am referring to as the one who might have put together the puzzle pieces.

As for my parents - they just don't believe in talk therapy. Or meds. They think it's a waste of money because they don't believe it does anything. Only you can do what you need to do for yourself. I really don't blame them for that mentality. They grew up in households with virtually no support of any kind and none of the comforts or luxuries of today's modern era. They always just had to suck it up and do what they needed to get done. They had no other choice. Study hard enough to get work. Work part time while studying to get food on the table. Save enough to money to move out of the country. Adapt to a new culture and learn a totally new language. Eat or be eaten. The way they were able to rise from nothing to middle class was quite an admirable feat no doubt, but it leaves them rather uncompassionate towards people who seek help for every little thing that's going wrong in their life. Their life motto would really be the Nike motto. Just Do It.