I like my environment to be orderly, and I like to perform tasks to perfection, one main problem I suffer is that if I cannot achieve the level of order I need to I am uncertain if I can complete a task to satisfaction I have a tendency to procrastinate or refuse to do it...

Not keeping my environment orderly or in control causes me distress but it seems less distress than attempting to and failing. The same thing with not doing a task compared to doing it and not reaching my standards. This is clearly dysfunctional, and prevents me from doing many thing I want to do.

I am apt to study theory and I practice to improve my skills and knowledge to reach my desired degree of competency in an given area but this seems unrealistic for life. Also the ebb and flow of life causes chaos, often interfering or denying the time to accomplish tasks to my satisfaction or reducing control of my environment.

I have children and a wife and other people also impact on my ability to keep the house orderly and there needs (by necessity) impact on my organisation of my days and cause me distress and in turn distress to them and family function.

I can to some extent tackle this, through planning will power or managing anxiety I can reduce its impact or force myself to perform tasks that are necessary but I find it taxing and it does not reduce the distress this situation causes. I also have General Anxiety Disorder, Bipolar I, and will be undergoing extensive Psychological Assessments for such things as HFA, AS or similar issues... Needless to say the distress impacts on both Anxiety and Depression associated with Bipolar.

My main question is can anyone relate to this all or nothing situation? Have people with OCD experienced similar things or is it something else?