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Old Mar 12, 2015, 07:15 AM
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Originally Posted by Hooligan View Post
Yes, I understand this fear.

The fear of knowing what is causing this and what these symptoms are.

I get this too.

It's not nice being scared of ourselves - or worrying about where / what is causing these symptoms.

Yes, being afraid of losing all control and snapping, I guess is the root of this fear.

Realistically, if this happened, you'd have to be in an extreme mood state, I woud think.

Well, I say this from personal experience only please.

The only time I snapped and went all out at work (well I'd assume you woud not want to snap in public or have others see you snapping)

was when I was extremely unwell but I was foolish enough to not take medical leave or a leave of absence.

I guess if you're working closely enough with your pdoc, you will be assisted in this regard.
(((Hooligan))) Thank you.

I don't think I necessarily need a medical leave of absence...but then again the thought keeps creeping into my head, "What if I snap at work? What if I get fired? What if I have to go to the hospital?" I know what would most likely put me into the hospital.

I'm trying to bring my pdoc up to speed. There has been so, so much I haven't told him. I have started coming clean with him.
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"Every person, on the foundation of his or her own sufferings and joys, builds for all." ~Albert Camus

Cymbalta, 60mg -- for the depression.
Latuda, 40mg -- for the paranoia (delusional type).
Adderall, 40mg XR & 5 mg reg -- for the ADD.
Xanax, .5 mg as needed -- for the anxiety.
Topamax, 50mg -- still figuring this one out.

MDD, but possibly have some form of Bipolar Disorder. Then again, I could be paranoid . . .

Well, at least I still have my sense of humor.