My kids are 13 and 15 and I have felt like a bad mother from day 1. Very little patience, and too wrapped up in my own head. The guilt and shame I have over parenting can be overwhelming at times and I have often thought of running away so my husband can find a nicer woman to mother them.

My therapist tries to tell me I am not a bad mom. That bc I worry it means I care, etc. But I still sometimes wonder if they are better off with or without me.

She also tells me that I am here everyday. They have a stable house- I am here physically all the time and they never go without.

I am sure that to your children you are a wonderful mom and they love you. Give yourself some credit and some slack. They are taken care of and you love them. And know that you are not alone in this worry! Also want to add, you have toddlers, even in the very BEST of situations toddlers are stressful!