Oh babe I feel for you, to be fighting yourself to live a functionable life. I'm glad you are seeing a therapist here soon.

Have you tried taking a notebook and writing what you want the other to know or ask and let the other answer back on it? I also did auto handwriting, which is wild to see your hand writing with out any real effort. I've been doing it for years it's easy now.

Co-conscience is I'm aware of my alters. I'm aware of what's happening but as a different person. It's like a carnival ride. Everything is on automatic. Sometimes I'm missing time. New memories disappear into the darkness.

I have alters that keeps my bad alters in check. They are like guards. I told you about Angry Man, I got the guards tipsy and they failed.

Check this out:

Alter - Dissociative Identity Disorder, Dissociation and Trauma Disorders