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Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2
Being co-conscience I'm aware of other alters. Most DID'ers don't hear voices because they are not aware of the other alters. That usually comes out later in therapy. I have one renegade alter that screwed my life up over and over. I'd make a good logical decision about something like saying "no that's so not me", a voice would come out of no where saying "DO IT! NOBODY WILL EVER KNOW!" I always thought that was my naughty side coming out not crediting it as an alter. And of course, it's a last minute decision and when I listened to it, it never went well.
I always thought my voices was my thinking process. I was so proud that I was able to look at a problem from every point of view and angle, then take a vote on a final decision. I thought this was normal. It made me look smart.
I fought myself for years and now I'm in full acceptance and rolling with it. When it's time to work I have an alt for that. He's smart. I'm just the homebody that loves these online forums! Lol
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Hi Alwayschanging2,
I've known about my DID for about a year now, and have been in therapy for about a year as well. On top of therapy I'm doing a lot of my own research. Maybe that's why the voices are getting stronger? Or it could just be the meds I'm on. I went 20 years without hearing voices, except to protect me every once in a while. One voice woke me up from a deep sleep to tell my a boyfriend of mine was really married. Turns out the voice was right!!
So there are a few theories of the voices. They could be DID related and getting stronger due to my obsessive research on the subject. They could also be due to the meavy dose of meds I'm on too. They could be angels/sprit guides since they seem to have unforseen knowledge. Or I could just be bat-***** crazy!!! Lol.
I've been very stressed lately, and that can be aggravating and underlining medical condition. I envy the way your personalities can work together. Its neat that you have a work personality. If integration is not possible, your strategy seems to work out just as well. I'm hoping for the ability to get my inner sociopath to comply and work with me, rather than against me.
As always, thank you for the response! :-)