thanks 8888an8888, no, I don't have therapist, looking for one for so long and still can't find any on insurance.. and can't afford private.. meds for anxiety/panic disorder made my life only into bigger hell, suicidal and intrusive thoughts came with them.. so I don't trust meds.. and my stomach hurts a lot after any kind of meds...
I wanted to go to gp tomorrow, but my friend who supposed to pick me up there can't do this, and I'm not able to go alone.. hah even with someone I'm freaking out, my mind is sure if I go I will have full blown panic attack because I haven't had heavy attacks for a while.. is there really any recovery possible? I'm loosing any hopes for it, when I can't even recover from a cold/flu...