I appreciate the love and kindness of all of you. Today was a little better. I think everybody seemed to know that it was time to leave me alone and get off my case. One of the other nurses was upset and worried because I have been upset. She said she is about ready to resign. To tell the truth I am about ready to resign. I do not have another job to go to but I am tired.

I am also tired of everything in my life revolving around this job. One of my patients told me today there is going to be a Native American pow-wow in a neighboring town Saturday. I would love to go to the pow-wow. I love Native American stuff. I used to go to events like this all the time but now when Saturdays come along I am so exhausted I collapse.

Oddly enough, some people seemed to be bending over backwards to be helpful today. I wonder why. The same head doctor who has been on my case all week wanted to know why I am the only nurse who will help with his procedures. I did not know what to tell him. The other nurses don't really want to help with his procedures.

I have so much to do but now I am so tired. I have to do my son's tax return, finish my tax return, and I want to put together a resume to apply for a historical museum job. That is my goal for Saturday.

I have had the "big nervous breakdown" this week. But I shall get back up and keep on trying to make a better life and better world for myself.

I have a ton of clerical work at the office that is so far behind. I don't know what to do since we are never given any time anymore to work on it.

I appreciate everyone's kindness.