Why do I have such an insatiable desire to die? I have almost my entire 45 years of life. I think it's permanently burned into my brain's hard wiring. My mind ocd's on it just like music, sex, money, and etc. with no relief.

I would be better off. I am nothing but a worthless, hopeless, helpless, and penniless piece of a terd. Why won't the man let me leave this hell on earth. Sometimes I think that terminally physically ill people have it much better because at least they know they are about to check out. I, on the other hand, am stuck to suffer more mental anguish like others here.

Nothing in this life is fair. Why can't someone like me that's terminally mentally ill be covered in the die with dignity laws?