I rarely do things that leave permenant noticeable scars. Most injuries become unnoticable within a week or two. If scars form they are so small they aren't really noticable unless you are really looking for them. I find the more worked up I get the more likely it is that I will do greater damage, thus leaving more scarring. I tend to do small things before I get to the point of doing the big things. This makes quitting difficult because as I start getting worked up while trying not to hurt myself I start worrying that if I don't hurt myself will I hurt myself worse latter on when/if I fail to calm myself with these new coping techniques I am not all that good at using. It is scary. I want to stop but it seems to me that the effort to stop may be putting me in greater harm's way. It is my hope that if I keep working on learning how to interact with people that I will get triggered less which will naturally lessen the need to SI.
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