*Everybody* needs support when they're facing a huge loss. This is a huge loss. This is somebody that cares about you, and helps you, and that you trust... who is not going to be here for you anymore. It's OK to complain, and cry, and be hurt, and be lost... don't beat yourself up for feeling unsure about how to manage

And, JaneC, I'm so sorry. I've had a really hard time with therapy and trust and stuffing emotions too... and I'm not quite there yet with my T, but I can imagine how awful and painful it would be to get to that place, to finally be ready to dig in and start doing the real hard work of therapy, and to feel hopeful about getting through it finally, and to have that taken away

It sucks. I really hope your T is able to help you process some of this before he goes... but I'm so sorry that you have to go through it at all.

Take care of yourself, and try to take it a little easy if you can. *hugs*