Sometimes I feel that way. If only I could remove certain parts of me, you know cut out the pain. But what would be left? Not much. I get so angry sometimes. He got away free and clear, I meanwhile continue to abuse myself. I want to say it is stupid but I am trying not to cut myself down like that because it keeps me stuck. I am trying to learn to love and heal what he destroyed in me but it is hard. I want to turn away from that part of me but if I do I can never be whole. So what am I stuck with? Either I face the pain of what happened or I face the pain of only being part of a person. It sucks either way.
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