Forgive me, but 19 years and no ring, no proposal no marriage? I can't help but wonder why. You pay for most things, do all of the household chores and pretty much have to beg for him to share gambling winnings with you. Ugh...I just wonder why you stay and let him treat you this way. I also think you fear confrontation, perhaps childhood issues? Sounds to me like you could do better and spend the remainder of your life being cherished by someone who really loves YOU. He seems to care more about himself than you. NO you are not crazy and you are NOT out of line. Unfortunately, you have taught him how to treat you and it's going to be a long, hard road to re-train him, if that is even possible. Big hug for you and I hope you start to look out better for yourself. You deserve it.