Thank you all for the kind words and making me feel very welcome. I am sorry it has taken me a while to get back on. Technology was not on my side and things kept crashing and I had to walk away lol.
Its nice after all this time to see people who dont shun mental health or question why i do what i do or why i do it a certain way. My dad had parkinsons along with alzheimers/dementiaand used to fall over a lot in public and droll on himself and slur his words and people just walked by judging calling him a drunk or a druggie or he would get up and do strange things that made sense to him and people always judging him and giving him into trouble. he took out an 800 pound loan, went out on a night out and came home in an ambulance with a police escort, no trousers and 100 pound left in his shirt pocket. I just laughed, he was ill and that is an epic thing to do. More fool the people giving a vulnerable man a loan, but noone else did and some members of my family even disowned my dad which made me clamp up and do everything I could to be normal. My family quickly intervened and had him put into care against his will where he died within months because his heart weakened dramatically and it all made me very scared to show people how very bad I had become over the years. Basically I have had to accept to myself that I could be locked up by being honest about how bad my mind can be, in seeking help from doctors etc. I just hope we can continue things the way they are going with promotion of mental health and i hope it will bring more like me out of hiding and maybe help us find happier freeer lives.
Ocean5 i cant seem to bring myself to phone people, even if i know they want to speak to me. I just feel like its always questions on the phone and no face to read what is intended As a question can feel judgemental. One person i can sit on the phone to properly but still dont like having to phone her.
haha no i am definately a real profile jen, i dont even think my alters have fully develloped into proper individuals yet. I dont even have names for them. I just know how I feel at certain times and it feels like multiple ppl in same body.
thank you all for the introductory stories back etc. might have came across as abig drama queen With my big speech lol.
Ladisputelover, the causes may be different but the path can still be similar or the same. Sometimes differences can help us see where improvement can be made
avlady you will regret that when my childish side is on here talking about pokepokemon and disney cartoons etc
healingme4me thank you, you guys seem lovely already.
always changing, i think i will be hanging around im not the most punctual these days though guys so do excuse the laziness.