Hi IRL, I've followed your threads before - what about transitioning to a new T -start seeing a new one and see her/him for a couple of weeks before you end the other? Maybe this would help deal with the loss? I have been having some acupuncture since I stopped, don't know if it has helped. I have made an appointment to see a new T who has the kindest face I can imagine ( hope she looks like that in real life). I think it might the thought of talking to her that has helped me to sleep better. I think you are thinking of training as T- maybe you could consider it research to experience a different T - though I think you said you had had other T's. I'm sure there is a wonderful T out there who will talk and listen to you in the way you deserve. Good luck