Then what does your house say about how you feel?

Mine isn't a potential hoarders episode anymore, but its definitely cluttered, and probably chaotic to many people.

I know there are simple things I can do to straighten up, but right now they feel like too much effort. But as bad as this is, it's NOTHING compared to how it nearly always looked last year...I can still see my carpet right now, aside from the dog toys all over the floor. Before, I had to literally climb and hop over large piles and boxes of things.

I feel like I'm better now, then I was before. Even though my house is still a mess. And the difference is that in previous years, I was so...DEPENDENT on my T...torn up if I didn't have constant contact/reassurance from her. Obsessed to the point I had room for thinking about little else.

But now she doesn't speak to me outside session. She has positioned herself as a support, but she isn't really there. I know now that I can't turn to her for anything. There is a new distance now...now that I am forced to rely on only myself and/or the resources I found for myself in my community.

Maybe I'm drawing weird parallels, but that's how I've connected it in my mind.