Hi, my name is Oliver and I'm 18 years old. I have been diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome, OCD and ADHD. Please take the time to read what I am about to write.

An hour ago I got a "rage attack", there was an argument between me and mom, and then dad steped in, even my big sister. It got to much when all were blaming me for asking if we had a blanket for one of our dogs as she was laying on the plain floor. They said I should look for a blanket myself before asking, but the problem is that I don't know where the blankets are, and even if I did I wouldn't know wich blankets I could take, so I have to ask. The arguing kept going and mom started screaming at me, I was already upset so I called her a *****, dad steped in and I screamed at him, so he backed down and went quiet because he knows by now to stay out of it. Last time he steped in I punched a wall and broke two knockles, so we had to spend a whole night at the hospital. Anyways, the argument stops for a little bit and its quiet, but I'm just standing in the kitchen frozen, building up so much anger and I had to let it out. I threw chairs around, pushed stuff of the table and then went on into my room to punch holes in my door and then throw my office chair. For an hour now I've been sitting here shaking and trying to fight my anger with logical thinking.

I think, that sometimes my family forgets that I have handicaps and autism, and they start blaming me for my flaws. I keep thinking to myself, "If I sit in a wheelchair, will that keep reminding them that I am handicaped?". When a guy in a wheelchair is trying to get down some stairs, people rush to aid him. When I try to pick a game to buy at the game store, no one helps me.
I never have anyone who comes rushing to my aid, to talk to me and reason with me. Instead I am forced to make decisions by myself, wich may or may not turn out very well. If a cellphone that costs $100 is just as good a cellphone that costs $400 but this one is green colored, I would most likley buy the green colored one because of my color OCD.

Tell me, what did I do wrong? Because I sure don't understand what I did wrong by asking for a blanket for the dog. I always say sorry to my parents after an outbreak, but this time they are gonna have too. Untill then I am going to be mad at them. My outbreak wasn't my fault, they triggered it and they should know better.

Thank you.