Please bear with me. I get outbreaks too. I have Asperger's, ADHD, and schizoaffective disorder along with panic disorder. Mine are significantly less than they used to be growing up with my parents. I would punch holes in walls too. These days, the worst thing I've done is throw my laptop or throw drink cans off a table, things like that. My husband says it is what makes me immature sometimes, but I have been doing these outbreaks less than before. Anyway,... I wanted to say, I am always responsible for how I react to things. I am responsible for my outbreaks, and throwing things, and not handling myself appropriately. It is my fault I threw my laptop, not the person online who made me mad. My husband doesn't see my Asperger's as an excuse to throw things. My whole life I have been blamed for my reaction to things, while no one cared at all about what people did to me to make me mad. I am slowly learning, my reaction is just as important as what people have done to me. I used to get in trouble for hitting my sister after she taunted me and made me mad, and she would not get punished. It was maddening! I felt like no one cared about how people were hurting me and upsetting me. It is still the case sometimes, but I am slowly learning that I can handle things differently regardless of who's fault it was for making me upset or mad. When you might reach this point, I don't know. I am sorry people are making you this upset. It really takes a toll on us people with Autism. I hope something I have said has helped, or at least hasn't hurt you.