I had sex for above 5 times (I'm not counting times when we almost did it), it always was painful, it was so painful that I cried.
My girlfriends don't like to talk about this stuff, one told me she felt pain when she lost her virginity but second time there were no pain.
Have you ever felt pain during sex? How many times you had to sleep with guy not to feel pain?

I saw a gynecologist. I felt pain when she looked there, it was horrible pain and I cried because it was so painful. She was even scared that I'm virgin at this moment. She put her finger inside me, it wasn't that painful but it was painful.
I cried and told her how horrible it is when you want to have sex with your man but these pain are stopping you.
She suggested me to put my fingers there like masturbating but I know I just can't do this because it's too painful.

I'm desperate because I want sex but I can't. I don't know what to do, it seems hopeless and it makes me want to die.
I think it's physical issue, everything there is so small. I don't have boyfriend anymore and I'm scared to sleep with anyone because I can't stand this pain, it feels like knife there.

I talked about this to my group T (she is female) but she didn't tell me anything useful just- she wasn't right guy for you. Yes, he isn't but why, oh why it hurts so much even if someone puts only a finger there.

I feel dumb. I realized I know nothing about it and nobody tells me.
I need someone who could share her experience and help me.