Hi everyone. I came across this website just looking for more info on bipolar disorder. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder 16 years ago when I was 18 but never believed the doctors so I didn't take the medicine they rxed me. All my life I suffered off and on with severe depression and self medicated by partying in my early 20s. I settled down when i met my husband but once I started having babies the hormones triggered deep depression and irritability. In 2014 I was hospitalized for a Bipolar 1 mixed episode and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I pretty much had a mental breakdown. So, I was put on Lithium 900mg at night, Depakote 500mg twice a day, Ativan as needed, for anxiety attacks, and Seroquel 200mg at night and 50mg 3x a day! Luckily I have recovered well with taking my meds diligently, seeing my psychiatrist, and psychotherapy every other week but most importantly (for me) putting all my time into studying my faith in Christianity. I feel good but still sometimes question my diagnosis at times. I wonder if I will ever come to terms with it.