I can really relate to your post. I have been in that position many times where I feel like I am not able to cope with parenting. It's just a phase. It passes. It's temporary. There are ups and downs, ebb and flow. Sometimes we have off days, down days, bad days. But there is the other side too, the up days, the beautiful positive days. Just because you had a bad day doesn't mean you are a bad mother. And you are certainly NOT alone... there are many among us who have felt like we needed help. We're not supposed to be parenting in silos. Humans are communal beings and we were designed to need help of other humans when we have young children and at any age.

Ozzy1313 - thank you for posting what your T says about being there, being stable, caring, etc. I too have to remind myself at times off all the positives when I am feeling so black and low and triggered. Deep breath.