It all feels so wrong. I am titilating between anger/rage and great sorrow. His affair makes me wonder what substance I have to any of my relationships. If two people can be married for 21 years and have this happen, what else isn't right?

My therapist tells me that he needs to take reponsibility for what he did. That there were many options he could have excercised besides having an affair. But this all feels like I've lived my life wrong and that I was totally rejected - the ultimate rejection - and that it's all my fault.

I feel empty and hollow. And so angry. This just seems like it's too much.

Songbird