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I truly understand what you mean by just constantly being in pain .. kind of like a dull pain that has a not so funny way of just hanging onto you wherever you go.

Try and find things that will stimulate you, things that you *want* to do. Whether that be extracurricular or not .. its just important that you do something so that it keeps your mind off everything, and so that it hopefully will make you feel better about yourself and what you are doing.

I know its not easy ... not at all, but you can do this.
Feel free to PM me if you ever want to talk ...

Jacq