So I told my T yesterday how my depressions are different than they used to be. Last month I was IP in a mixed episode. Its hell, I say! Hell! He said, like a friend I had here, that I am probably have mixed states and not just depressions. Id take a regular depression over mixed any day. Makes me wonder if I have rapid cycling.

But looking deeper, I find myself thinking Im not bipolar 1. I don't think I have ever had a full blown mania. I guess maybe hypomania.

I am just pleased that I have been a great mood for two weeks now. My sleep has been off for a few days now. Not sure whats up with that. T says maybe if it continues I need to talk to pdoc about it but the 600mg gabapentin I take was for sleep mostly. No clue why its not helping LOL

Im rambling. Lots of thoughts in my head. Thought after thought. Song after song.