I don't think you are lazy. You are truly tired. I don't know if you have depression. There is a depression test on the forum. It measures depression by your answers. Perhaps a good start would be to go to a medical doc and see if there is a medical health reason for your tiredness. Something like hypothyroidism can make you feel tired all the time. If you rule out a physical health problem then you can figure out if there is a depression issue.

Welcome to pc. Oh, and I really like your purple/blue flower.