(((Scottiedog))) Welcome to Psych Central. It's nice to meet you!!!

You are definitely not heading in a positive direction. Any way you can throw that scale out the window?? You've come too far. 12 years!! Wow!!

I would advise you to mention it to your GP. Do anything it takes to get yourself back to a positive state. How did you overcome it before? Therapy? Meds?? Head it off now before you have to start at ground zero. I wish you the best. Be well!!!