I know how you feel, it is utterly ridiculous how they don't put more effort in treating the mentally ill, we are just forgotten completely and put in the shadows, they don't even care if we are suffering it feels like. I pray hard that things will change in my life, and others lives who are mentally ill, its a long hard battle, especially with the whole mental illness stigma, but we have God and each other, thats how I look at it anyways.