I'm sorry to hear you're feeling this way.
I feel sometimes when I'm at the worst place in my depression, the silver lining is that it can only get better, even if only a little. And who knows, things may turn completely around. After all the suffering, don't you wanna see the light at the end of the tunnel? You get stronger through the hard times. You have so much strength. Don't make all the struggling be for nothing.

Your best days are ahead.
I wish you all the best.