Thank you for repling.
Grounding kinda scares me sometimes cuz then it makes me realize how out of it I am/was. Sometimes I try and ground and I get all scared and have anxiety.
Sometimes mt T helps if I need grounding, but it really wierds me out cuz she talk in a soft voice which kid REALLY likes but I am totally weirded by it. And I don't want kid around T cuz she SO way needy, the kid is.
So I shy away and go in circles .
I just figgered something today!!!!!
I figgered that my writings are REAL and this body that presents before the T is a facade. In T I am so careful of words that I say(I don't say much). But what I say is all filtered. But when I WRITE there is LESS FILTERS!!! So truth can come out some. Some only. But some. I write lots, I dunno if T realizes that REAL me is in writings, I think she think real me is the body b4 her, but it isn't, its just a shell of seeming mute normality.