(((Bishtaw)))
I wonder perhaps if this anxiety of yours is also linked to some self esteem?
I am sorry to hear that you feel this way around others I really am.
Your post reminded me of this forum and I am wondering if you have seen it.
You may be able to use it in conjunction with this one if you find it useful:
Steps to Better Self-Esteem - Forums at Psych Central
Take it easy.