(((RedDot)))
Congratulations.
I really wanted to let you know how much I admire your honesty.
This is honestly a very positive step towards change.
We can not change what we do not acknowledge.
And you acknowledge.
Which is great.
It is part of your recovery process.
The next is to work out what caused this behaviour in order to work through these issues causing you these emotions.
Take it easy.
And thank you for letting us know.