Wow! Thank you everyone who has responded. Once again I'm in debt to this website. You make me think.

I told the office that I canceled everything. Then walked away. I was happy. Next day I get an email from T asking if I was terminating... Why so....& shouldn't we have a termination appt.
Usually I'm quick to answer her. First thought was hell NO. Then I waited.
I'd like to some day, get a divorce from H. We have kids & I'd like to have rights to them too. I know my H will try & use my MH as a great excuse to keep me away. So I wrote back saying that since we've only had 2 appts since Xmas that I feel like I've been doing pretty good. Yes we can do a termination appt.
So now I have to hold my head high for this appt. She knows I've entered Into the bdsm lifestyle & she's does not approve. This is my hang up.

I've looked around to other T's in the area & none are willing to work w/my lifestyle & diagnoses. That's frustrating, but started to think maybe I just don't need T. Maybe I just need to relax in my head & try it all by myself!
I hope so.
Thanks everyone.