I am having a real problem since we've started talking a lot about certain feelings and things that happened in the past. During the week I can feel angry and emotional, play out conversations with my T and even write things down to discuss but as soon as I get into session I shut down.

I answer things yes/no/maybe. Can't discuss in detail. Even reading the emails out it feels like a stranger wrote them and I shrug and don't want to discuss. I emailed about an issue I wanted to talk about, it's hard for me to start on it. We chatted a bit and T asked to come back to it next session. Next session comes around and she's asking me about something else and complimenting how calmly I can discuss it.

I wanted to scream. I am calm because I am not letting myself feel this. It's not a sign of doing better but of hiding it. Finally I bring the topic up AGAIN that I am looking to discuss and she says " Oh yes, I'm sorry you did say you wanted to talk about that well we can now" With TEN MINUTES LEFT

It's a very hard thing just to say at the start please lets talk about this. I have tried asking her to bring it up, emailing her, reminding her and we do not discuss it. Instead she asks me about this other topic that I am sure is relevant but not where my brain is and so I'm not sodding anxious about it right now but this does not mean I have gotten over it.

Sorry for the rant, hope any of it makes sense. I'm so frustrated and now I have to wait another week, I'll fume about it all week and then probably shrug and smile and say nothing come therapy time.