I get to the point where my head feels like it will just explode. The stress just builds and builds and when I don't have anyone to talk to i.e. Therapist, I end up doing something that I have some control over....self harm. It feels so good and then I feel so guilty. But in that moment it is all I can think of to releave the stress.

By the way I don't cut, I do something else that is more longterm determental to my health.