I'm in a relationship currently with a man. We have been together for a couple of years.
After a lot of soul searching, I came out as a Lesbian to him. He denied it up and down. After he attempted to except it, he pulled the same thing again. ><

What he does is he immediately goes into psychosis, has a panic attack, yells at me for anything I've ever done wrong, begs me to say and finally tells me he is going to end his life.
This happens about 4-5 times a month. I've called the cops on him twice and he was baker-acted to a really horrible facility. The second time he went he was raped by a staff member. So, now I'm afraid to call the cops on him.

I don't want him to hurt himself and I don't want anyone to hurt him. We used to fight 3 times a month but since I came out, we argue everyday. He just refuses to leave me. He's even gone as far as to say he wants to get a sex change.

Every day I am so stressed out. I'm losing hair, I'm ignoring my hygiene, I'm abusing benadryl everyday so I don't have to deal with the morning, I'm so unfocused that I can't even study! I just feel like this situation is driving me into insanity.

He has even gone as far as to drop his dog and cat off at my door so they "couldn't see him die". I just... I don't know what to do. I don't. If he goes to a facility he comes out, makes a fake number or email, and sends me these awful things about suicide.

I feel like the longer I stay with him, the further away I will be from happiness. But if I leave, he will end his life and I feel like I'M responsible for it. I feel like I'm stuck with him...

Has anyone gone through this? Just so no one thinks I'm judging him, I have hurt myself before. This was before I even met him. I overdosed through my adolescence. I know how he feels. I just.... I don't think it's fair that I have to just be stuck like this forever.......