I'm in a spiral myself so I doubt i'll be much help~ just wanted to acknowledge the read and thoughts. I thought "damn~ I'm jealous." Not really but there is no way in hell I could have gone to college when I was a single parent and therapy would have destroyed me. You have got to be tired of being strong.

Mourning sucks. Hopefully processing the pain of loss with your therapist will allow you to continue your path to healing but I wouldn't be grateful either. I wish you the best and hope you find some down time to forget your troubles and relax ~ if only for a moment.